She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart,
While I'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar,
And we don't know how,
How we got into this mad situation,
Only doing things out of frustration

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard,

She needs me now but I can't seem to find the time,
I've got a new job now on the unemployment line,
And we don't know how,
How we got into this mess
Is it god's test?
Someone help us 'cause we're doing our best,

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard

But we're gonna start by
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,
Shit talking up all night,
Saying things we haven't for a while
A while, yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears,
Even after all these years,
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time

She's in line at the dole
With her head held high
While I just lost my job but
Didn't lose my pride

But we both know how,
How we're gonna make it work when it hurts,
When you pick yourself up,
You get kicked to the dirt,

Trying to make it work but,
Man these times are hard,

But we're gonna start by,
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,
Shit talking up all night,

Doing things we haven't for a while,
A while yeah,
We're smiling but we're close to tears,
Even after all these years,
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time.

Yeah.....
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,
Shit talking up all night,
Saying things we haven't for a while,
We're smiling but we're close to tears,
Even after all these years,
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting, for the first time

Yeah for the first time
Oh for the first time,
Yeah for the first time,
(just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time)

Oh these times are hard,
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

Back again

*memasuki blog dengan masker dan sapu*
Note: Kalo kalian baca blog gue, tolong pahami bahwa gue orang yang boros kata.



Whoa it's been ages since my last post ya. Ini pegel banget abis bersihin sarang laba-laba dan debu yang nutupin blog gue.
Banyak banget hal yang udah lama ngga tercurahkan dalam bentuk tulisan ke blog ini.
Bahkan gue udah lupa hal apa aja yang patut gue flashback dan tulis dalam post kali ini. 


Well, Im gon' put it down some.

Februari 2011 : 
Hal pertama : Gue balikan. Yes, dengan lelaki yang sama yang menjadi objek dalam post-post terakhir gue. Yang sempet memberikan efek 'darah' pada post gue. Yah, banyak alasan dibalik proses itu pastinya.


Hal kedua : Gue menua. 18 tahun. Cukup umur untuk menikah. Tapi belum ada yang mau nikahin gue.


Sebenernya banyak banget hal yang cukup berarti -baca:tragis- di 2011 yang memberikan banyak pelajaran hidup buat gue. Tapi hal itu terlalu berarti untuk ditulis bahkan dalam sebuah diary pribadi online.

And now, here I am.
8 Februari 2012.
Udah 4 hari gue berumur 19 tahun. Sudah lebih sedikit dari cukup untuk menikah. The same problem, belum ada yang mau nikahin gue. Nevermind.


Ngga tau kenapa gue excited banget ngomongin nikah. Whereas to commit to live with someone in a long period is a way hard enough for me. To be with and to live with is different. And I even cant be with just one person.


No, I am not a kind of a player. I respect the commitment. But to stay in a commitment and to seduce someone is another story for me. I am a mind-gamer *wink*


Ah, lagi-lagi post ini ngga punya benang merah. Tapi biarlah, pun gue cuma mengutarakan. Toh blog gue hanya percakapan satu arah yang tertulis. 
Dan sebelum tulisan gue makin ngaco, lebih baik kita sudahi. 





Merdeka atau Mati.
Salam olahraga.

I am single.And lately i enjoy living my days. Finally. And i say, Alhamdulillah.

Halo. Pagi, Dunia. Pagi, Kenyataan.

Mulai hari ini, saya akan tergantikan.

Well, be strong ain't just a tagline.

Sakit.
Capek deh nahan-nahan perasaan kayak gini.
Rasanya mau nangis sampe mata gue copot.
Mau teriak sampe suara gue ilang.
Mau maki-maki sampe dibilang gila.
Gue capek. Banget.
Ya Tuhan.

Apa lagi?

Mau apa lagi?

Masih kurang?

A Thing.

Hello.
So much to feel.
So much to tell.
But i can not write them down here.
Just can not.
Seem like, words can not really express my emotion.

These happiness. Smile. Laughs. Love.
There wounds. Pain. Insecurity.
These objurgations.
These judgements.
All of it.
I am not regret you or everything either you have been given me or i have given you.
I just, hate you, now.




And i am living another story of mine.
Bye.

There are times when words can't explain what is happening.
So tears talk to much for reason in return.

There are times when words can't explain the way you feel.
And tears have dried to get you clear.
And there is no one to make you cheer.

But you gotta keep standing here,
To be able to watch,
Who is gonna stay,
Who is gonna leave.

And then do move on, to decide
Who is gonna be hold,
Who is gonna be left.

And whatever comes along the way,
You gonna survive.
You gonna believe.
That there is always a way,
To be alright with all the things,
That have changed.
That have left.
With all the people,
That have came, and gone.

Ya Allah, capek banget...